Photos taken at Stone Barns on Oct. 3, 2008. I like to think of these pics as vegetable centerfolds:
I am wear-ing my slightly
skin-
nier jeans. The ones that I folded neatly and put on a shelf about nine months ago, when I stopped being able to sit down Indian-style in them. So while the scale refuses to move much, I have lost a little poundage and the jeans are proof of that.
I continue to "explore" my sugar addiction. For example, this weekend we went camping. Now camping to me says: eat anything you want, you're roughing it! (Well, it says more than that, but for the sake of the argument...) So I ate some cookies, some chocolates, a mini Snickers and had a trance at the campfire. Then I woke up and had a donut, and some more chocolate, some leftover peach cobbler. I had some coffee to wash it down. By 3 p.m. I was an exhausted, cranky emotional bi-otch. Pretty foliage at Lake Sebago? You mean get out of the car and walk there?! Are you kidding me? Waah. Nature sucks. I want to go home and eat more....sugar!
So as you can see, I am a human and I still find it challenging to 'just say no' to sweets, especially when I failed to bring any alternatives. The "sugar-sode" illustrated to me two things: sugar is a nasty, nasty thing. And I love nasty, nasty things. I will continue to work on this beast.
Meanwhile, back in the land of kale and amaranth - that's my new grain of the week - things are going well. I have been feeling overall very calm, relaxed and comfortable in my own skin.
This week, the transformation has been psychological as well. This nutritional makeover, and the success of losing a little weight, have really felt empowering. And this sense of empowerment has had profound effect in how I relate to the world around me. For example, in a public meeting yesterday instead of feeling anxious and breathless when I spoke in front of a group of 20 people, I felt confident enough to pause, take a deep breath and let it out before speaking. It's a small victory, but it's an important one.
I find myself craving whole foods more and more. I am finding it challenging to make enough time to cook (and clean up after) - I bought some new aluminum nesting-bowl containers to bring home-cooked food to work in. I have also taken a little extra effort to keep my kitchen clean, so it's appealing to jump in and cook something.
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